Charlie or Charles Johnson

À propos de moi: not much to tell, live as a loner, don't drive very far away from home, that would lower carbon emissions in the area I live in, I can look at it that way, very low income college grad, can't afford restaurants, make food at home, retired, non-smoker, never smoked, not vegetarian, not pet owner, read history books sometimes, also occasionally adult paperbacks from the past, watch long cock straight porn online, not gay, do a little bit of nude modeling here, talked with Susan here who eventually left this site, and she said "no content, no friendship," so I had to do modeling, I didn't care at my age and being retired, I don't have an image to protect anymore, many guys want to get with me here, they want to suck my dick, but no females except one requested that, one female here, a Russian, posted "your penis is small, I'm going to go out and find a huge cock to suck, goodbye," I had said something that offended her, and she blew her top, I didn't mean to offend her, she had some emotional problems over a very minor physical problem that could get treated by a female doctor in Russia, I was digging on the photos of her she sent me, I wanted to jack off to them but never did, I had to delete them because she dropped me, then another girl here, an Asian, said "your penis is pathetic," then a beach bunny(👙🏄🏻‍♂️) from St. Augustine said back in 1975 "You're too small" after we stripped down at her digs after a 3-6' sunny, warm, semi-glassy surf's up day at Blowhole on Anastasia Island in North Florida, this place sucks, so I am fairly punch drunk in life by now, I just fell on the street on Jan. 29th when jogging when changed my pace which I should never do while jogging, and fractured 2 rib bones, they finally healed on Feb 22nd 2 days ago, now I can sleep on that side, my right side, w/o any pain, so again I am fairly punch drunk by now, life is not a walk in the park for me, for instance I recall one sunny day when I was about 2 years old and my family was staying with a late Aunt out in the country of South Carolina in a small town called Barnwell near Augusta, Georgia because my late father didn't have enough money yet in his new job for housing, and me, my father and my Aunt, his sister, were in her backyard, inside a chain-link fenced area, obviously for a dog at one time, not then though, and we walked out of it to go back in her house, and the gate closed on my left thumbnail and tore it almost all the way off, it was just hanging there, nobody held the gate open for me, my relatives had turned their backs to walk back inside and left me behind there, and I was too young to know how to manipulate it, so I knew then that this place from then on is going to suck for me, what an alienating feeling for a 2 year old, so I am somewhat punch drunk by now, I try to mentally repress suck and dig on sex as you see from my photos and video, I've been into sex since I began looking at Playboy-type men's mags in 1963 or 64 when I was twelve or thirteen and found a gold mine of 5 or 6 brown paper grocery bags full of off brand mags not made anymore such as Swank, Dude, Mister, Sir, they were dry and clean and not around any garbage cans, I hid them in the neighborhood in a cardboard box under some leaves in back of a next door neighbor's garage where the railroad tracks were, all neighbors and my own family never went outside there in their backyards, houses were far away on the other side of the tracks, I'd go back there and look at them, I didn't know about jacking off then so I didn't do that looking at them; why my cock came out small is bewildering and perplexing to me, no females dig it at all, they don't look at me as a shemale, if I had a female head and small cock they would dig me finding me unusual, but my cock is smaller than some wellhung shemales(and is a defamation of my character that I have to try to repress) , and I have long hair, longer than some shemales and females, but I am not found as unusual as a shemale, I guess I would be called a "sissy" with my small cock, but I am not skinny at all like sissies are, I weigh 250 lbs at 5'9" tall, I would classify myself as a sort of hybrid shemale with a moustache, some shemales go all the way and do breast implants and wear makeup, I have never worn makeup or had breast implants, my beard grows so fast that it just wouldn't work out getting breast implants, mTF's are tv's, transvestites, I remember them from the early 70's, drag queens is what they were known as, real from birth transgenders are female except for their penises